5:00am Friday morning. Nurse takes blood pressure. Breakfast Alone. Bandage still on my wrist covering the 11 stitches used to close the wound I caused with my switchblade. All the other patients avoid me, probably because I am the only one in the Psychiatric Ward who tried to commit suicide. Shower. Get dressed. Wait… Psychiatrist…… Continue reading Day 6 post failed suicide attempt – what is religion really?
Rise Rise against the dying of the light… On the 5th day in the Psychiatric Hospital I was about to test medication called Ritalin. Ritalin (methylphenidate) is a nervous system stimulant that’s commonly used to treat ADHD in adults and children.It’s a brand-name prescription medication that targets dopamine and norepinephrine in the brain to reduce…… Continue reading Day 5 post failed suicide attempt – Ritalin to assist with High-functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome
Morning I wake up the same way as the previous day, nurse taking blood pressure, breakfast, medication, shower, get dressed, wait for the Psychiatrist. I do not join the group activity in the hospital, neither do I partake in the arts and crafts sessions. I don’t feel like engaging with the other patients… The nurse…… Continue reading Day 4 post failed suicide attempt – Autistic Savant syndrome
Morning 5:00am on a Tuesday I wake up with the request from the nurse, who entered our room, to sit up and have my blood pressure monitored. She asks about my pain and for a moment I forgot what she was referring to… Oh, yes, now I recall…the scar on my wrist. I received 11…… Continue reading Day 3 post failed suicide attempt – High-Functioning Autistic Savant syndrome
Morning The first morning I wake up at the hospital when a nurse come to check my blood pressure. I am still a bit drowsy from the sleeping pill and I kind of put together the room, the day, the previous day and why I am here… We have breakfast, I go to take a…… Continue reading Day 2 post failed suicide attempt – what is BPD?
The first day in a Psychiatric ward is not like in the movies. I did not know what to expect and had to follow instructions from nurses who have dealt with people with severe psychological issues, addiction, trauma, life-changing events and depression. I did not see myself in any of these categories… After my first…… Continue reading Day 1 in Psychiatric ward post failed suicide attempt – High-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome
‘Has anyone ever spoken to you about autism?’ my Psychiatrist asked after only 5 minutes of conversation in our first consultation session at the psychiatric ward post my failed suicide attempt. I tried to commit suicide 12 hours earlier on a Saturday evening. I drove out into the mountains, to be close to nature. I…… Continue reading High functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome – surprised to try and commit suicide
Hi Boss Just some feedback after my session with my Psychiatrist today: Mastering High-Functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome with comorbid ADHD and OCPD (I thought it apt to give a title to my journey 😊) Step 1 – Self Awareness (3-months) I was tasked last year December to focus on Self-Awareness for the first three months…… Continue reading 10 months post failed suicide attempt feedback to my Boss
Hi Boss Just some feedback after my session with my Psychiatrist today: SUCCESS Traumatic Grief The normal experience of grief is a deep sadness, a yearning for the past, often loneliness and a need to reach out for comfort. There may be initial shock and an inability to comprehend the reality of the loss, raw…… Continue reading Trauma recovery after failed suicide due to Autistic Burnout – Feedback to my Boss
Hey Boss I had my monthly session with my Psychiatrist today, here is some feedback just to keep you updated on my journey. I hope you don’t mind being the recipient, but it helps me understand my journey better if I ‘soundboard’ my experience 🙂 I also didn’t include the other GDs in this email…… Continue reading Autistic Savant syndrome – feedback to my Boss after 2 months back at work post my failed suicide attempt