I always felt like I didn’t fit in – How autism feels when you don’t know you’re on the spectrum

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I grew up in a small town. I have 3 brothers and 1 sister. I am the 4th child. Ever since I can remember I was alone. I was labeled as a weird kid. I remember that I was confused about the fact that I was not allowed to be in the same company as…… Continue reading I always felt like I didn’t fit in – How autism feels when you don’t know you’re on the spectrum

1000 All Time Views!!! – Thank you for taking the time to read this narrative about me and my attempt to master high-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome with co-morbid ADHD and OCPD

Thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings. I am not sure where this journey would lead to but I am taking you with me! Thank you for the donations so far, you help me more than I can imagine : 3 x Virtual Coffee 7 x small donations And to the one…… Continue reading 1000 All Time Views!!! – Thank you for taking the time to read this narrative about me and my attempt to master high-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome with co-morbid ADHD and OCPD

Thank you for following and thank you for over 500 views of my posts narrating my journey to master high-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome with co-morbid ADHD and OCPD

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Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you for following and thank you for over 500 views of my posts narrating my journey to master high-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome with co-morbid ADHD and OCPD. I only visit Normal, I don’t get to stay there…but you make it less lonely for me 🙂 Feel free to…… Continue reading Thank you for following and thank you for over 500 views of my posts narrating my journey to master high-functioning Autistic Savant syndrome with co-morbid ADHD and OCPD

Day 11 post failed suicide attempt – familiarity breeds contempt

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5:00am Nurse checks blood pressure. Breakfast. Shower. The Psychiatrist informs the staff to tell me that he would only visit at 19:00 that evening. The Psychologist will only visit me at 15:00, so I have the morning to myself. I start to work on what the Psychiatrist asked the previous day, and I try to…… Continue reading Day 11 post failed suicide attempt – familiarity breeds contempt

Day 10 post failed suicide attempt – Choose day

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5:00am Nurse takes blood pressure. Breakfast. Shower. Wait for Psychiatrist. It is Tuesday today… Tuesday: Old English Tīwesdæg ‘day of Tīw’, a Germanic god of war and the sky.Google I never could understand why ‘days’ felt different to people. Some hated Monday, some loved Wednesday, most wait for Friday and Saturday. Religious folk (most of them) practice…… Continue reading Day 10 post failed suicide attempt – Choose day

Day 9 post failed suicide attempt – removing stitches and: “What is ‘normal’ anyway?”

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5:00 Nurse takes blood pressure. She inspects the wound on my wrist and informs me that it has healed very well. We may want to look at removing the stitches later that morning. I go to have breakfast: scrambled eggs, grilled tomato, slice of brown toast, a small tub of yogurt, fresh fruit salad and…… Continue reading Day 9 post failed suicide attempt – removing stitches and: “What is ‘normal’ anyway?”

Day 7 post failed suicide attempt – roommates of a High-functioning Autistic Savant

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5:00am Nurse take blood pressure. Breakfast Shower Wait… Nurse informs me that the Psychiatrist will only visit later that morning so I decide to take stock of the first week in this very interesting place called: Psychiatric Hospital. The 3 gentlemen sharing my room with me has different reasons why they find themselves in this…… Continue reading Day 7 post failed suicide attempt – roommates of a High-functioning Autistic Savant

Day 6 post failed suicide attempt – what is religion really?

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5:00am Friday morning. Nurse takes blood pressure. Breakfast Alone. Bandage still on my wrist covering the 11 stitches used to close the wound I caused with my switchblade. All the other patients avoid me, probably because I am the only one in the Psychiatric Ward who tried to commit suicide. Shower. Get dressed. Wait… Psychiatrist…… Continue reading Day 6 post failed suicide attempt – what is religion really?

Day 5 post failed suicide attempt – Ritalin to assist with High-functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome

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Rise Rise against the dying of the light… On the 5th day in the Psychiatric Hospital I was about to test medication called Ritalin. Ritalin (methylphenidate) is a nervous system stimulant that’s commonly used to treat ADHD in adults and children.It’s a brand-name prescription medication that targets dopamine and norepinephrine in the brain to reduce…… Continue reading Day 5 post failed suicide attempt – Ritalin to assist with High-functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome