10 months post failed suicide attempt feedback to my Boss

Hi Boss

Just some feedback after my session with my Psychiatrist today:

Mastering High-Functioning Autistic Savant Syndrome with comorbid ADHD and OCPD

(I thought it apt to give a title to my journey 😊)

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Step 1 – Self Awareness (3-months)

I was tasked last year December to focus on Self-Awareness for the first three months of 2021.

My goal was to cultivate healthy Self-Awareness by:

  1. Creating space and time (connect with myself daily by avoiding digital distractions).
  2. Practicing mindfulness (pay attention to my inner state as it arises).
  3. Processing my thoughts through writing (journal my awareness).
  4. Practising to listen (Observe emotions and body language of people speaking to me).
  5. Gaining a different perspective (Ask for feedback from someone I trust).

My Dr was pleased with the results regarding my internal- and external awareness.

He is happy for me to take the next step in my quest to relate better to my new environment.

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Step 2 – Settle your Locus (3-months)

My next task is to settle my base.

I need to keep following and refining my current plan of:

  1. Following a zen lifestyle of simplicity and naturalness.
  2. Maintain and improve my close relationships.
  3. Keep following my physical training routine.
  4. Healthy balance between home and work.

In addition:

My focus at work needs to be on identifying what activities / position would stimulate my novelty seeking personality trait.

I present with a high mark on Exploratory Excitability subscale. I function better in a domain where my focus is to uncover new things, whereas repetitive actions tend to shut down my creativity and reward centre.

On the medication front we keep everything as it currently stands, no change needed.

In closing, I am doing very well and can just keep following this trajectory!

Thanks again for everything…

Take care

Autistic Savant syndrome – feedback to my Boss after 2 months back at work post my failed suicide attempt

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Hey Boss

I had my monthly session with my Psychiatrist today, here is some feedback just to keep you updated on my journey.

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I hope you don’t mind being the recipient, but it helps me understand my journey better if I ‘soundboard’ my experience 🙂

I also didn’t include the other GDs in this email since my interaction and exposure at work is mainly with you.

Happy if you want to share with them if you feel it will add value or context.

I am doing very well now, mentally and physically.

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There was only one afternoon this month where I could feel the medication working out at about 15:00, but I didn’t have meetings for the rest of that day, so the impact wasn’t that bad. Just felt fatigued mentally.

My dosage remains the same until December, so all good on that front.

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To Do List

My focus area (homework) for September is to read up on High Functioning Autistic Savant syndrome.

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It was revealed that I present with possible symptoms in the Spatial Skills (Map Making / Direction Finding), Art and Music replication categories of Savant syndrome, but without the difficulty of social interaction and isolation.

I excel at visual thinking and I also have enhanced perception of patterns and grouping processes as well as working memory.

I did the Raven’s Progressive Matrices IQ Test which measures fluid intelligence and achieved an IQ score of 147.

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This explains why I enjoyed dabbling in the data science linked to Telematics and its prediction models.

It also ties in with my problem-solving abilities which speaks to my Project Management skill set.

My Psychiatrist pointed out that I be mindful and tactful when sharing this newfound information with too many people. My humble intention for sharing may be misunderstood, and it can be mistaken for coming across as arrogant or narcissistic.

This misinterpretation would make it difficult for me to explain my excitement for sharing my mental gifts. Where I just feel obliged that it would be noble to apply my abilities to try and add value where I can, this aim may be lost in translation.

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So, I know I don’t have to ask, but please don’t share this with too many people seeing that I only present with the markers and haven’t been earmarked as someone with Savant syndrome yet.

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This new journey is unfolding at a controlled pace and I’m still processing all the information.

Thank you again for allowing me to find my path whilst trusting me with the Brand merge project, I am doing my best not to disappoint.

I do have a fantastic project team though, and they are doing a sterling job!

Please be patient with me if you note any delayed or confusing behaviour, I’m mindful of taking it one day at a time.

Take care

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